Everytime I am here I lose control. Am losing it again. Ate 4 breads with pesto, butter and cheese. Also I ate a slice of pancake with strawberry jelly for breakfast.

Morning weight; 53,7. That's +0,2kg. The gap between my tighs is closing again. I will not eat tomorrow. I will NOT be fat again.

I hate myself. Gah.

Been lazy about excercising again... Didn't do anything yesterday. Today went swimming tho and did some abs. Still too damn bad. I want to go home so I could continue properly again.

Anyway. Is it normal to feel sick after sex?

I want to be 52-50 kg. I'd be smaller than I have been since elementary school... I need it so badly.

Cigarette time->